Keeping it real

Hello Friends,

I am really trying to make an attempt at keeping up with this blog and doing my "activities" getting out of the house. I am not sure what is going to happen when Algebra starts, but I hope I will stay on path.

The weekend, Saturday night we (Dean, myself, and my son) went to The Texas Road House at dinner time. I feel as if I deserve trumpeting or something. It actually was not too busy. We got seated pretty much right away, which gives me less time to freak out. I looked at the drink menu, and I was tempted but I didn't drink any alcohol. I really don't drink much but the whole liquid courage thing that I tend to lean on from time to time is not a great idea for several reasons, so we rocked it sober. Dinner was very yummy and I am glad we went.

Sunday I went with Dean to The Father's Day Parade. My sister and niece were with us, my niece gets a kick out of the truck. It was kind of a long day, but having them with made it better. Unfortunately they had to leave. It is kind of natural being in a parade. I am in the vehicle, so the people don't freak me out and every day in that big green bronco is pretty much like a parade. I have learned one thing about myself. I am totally unable to throw candy. I almost impaled a woman with a Tootsie Pop. I finally stopped throwing candy, I kept injuring people. People if I injured you at the Father's Day Parade in Mukwonago I am so sorry!

The car show wasn't bad. I pretty much parked my ass in the chair and sat by the truck. I wandered over to the Porto Potty independently (sad that I am even mentioning that, but if you have anxiety issues or are agoraphobic like me, it really is a big deal). Lily and Family showed up which was a very nice surprise. It is always wonderful to see them and I got to kiss that baby. Baby kissing is a huge bonus!

After we wandered around for a bit (yup, I wandered) and it was time to go home. Dean met up with his son and his girlfriend for a bit. He didn't hear from his daughter at all, I know how shocking. Dean's sister was kind of in the same boat. I mean Dean is loved, and I am so grateful to those of you who show him that love; my family, Annie, well, you know who you are. Thank you, your love is appreciated beyond what words can actually express. Some people don't have that. Some people would rather live in the past, live in denial, maybe live in lies, but what it comes down to is we have one shot people. I was not always the best daughter, best sister, best Grandchild, and I have to live with that, but I would like to think that who I am now makes up for it. Really what is the point of holding on to hate, you are going to end up living your life filled with regret. We get one shot. You have a Mom and a Dad, love them. They will not be around forever, no one is with us forever. Don't live with regrets and remorse. Let Go! Love. Forgive. Live in the moment. You can punish someone until the day that they die, and once they are gone you are going to have to live with that. Make damn sure you can live with that.

Just by chance if you are reading this, as I suspect you do from time to time, that man is your Daddy and you are his Pumpkin. No matter how big or grown up you are you will always be his Pumpkin. That man would buy you boxes of chocolate when you got your period. FYI that is really not a Dad thing. You have successfully hurt him. Your goal has been achieved. Just remember he loves you. It is time to let go, he won't be here forever.


Love and Light

Weekend is here again.....

Hello my Blogosphere friends,

   I spent another Friday watching the people walk downtown for the Freeman Friday Night Live activities. Not that I was left with a lot of energy after my week, but this new ritual of watching the people walk down the hill to "fun", I am not sure if I like it so much. I know it is crazy busy but I am going to go down next week. My friend Chuck is playing with the band Cover2Cover and they will be at the Hannon's Stage next week. I need to do this. I am sure it will require ample amounts of Southern and diet, but sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do.

   I have errands to run today~Saturday errands. BOO HISS! I don't know how this happened but I am simply not pleased about it. Not really the day I had planned, or thought I had planned, but hell I guess I should be used to that.

    Tomorrow is Father's Day. I am supposed to go to the parade with Dean, the truck, and my niece. Afterwards is a car show/festival/carnival type of thing. I went last year but I never actually left the side of the truck. I guess I have mixed feelings about going. I don't really like leaving my son home by himself on Father's Day, it is a very somber time for him, being that he lost his Dad when he was 5, Father's Day is just another sucky reminder for him. He had attempted to invite Dean to do something several times. I hear this with my own ears, and each time he was "shushed", Dean was "too busy"....this does not please me either. That kind of makes Dean sound like a tool. So that is where we are today. My household is disgruntled....shocking.

   I hope you get out and do something fun today. At least try and get outside and enjoy some of this nice weather. Just do something for you even if you can't get out, take a bubble bath or paint your nails. Enjoy a good book. Try not to be disgruntled!

LOVE AND LIGHT!

Pridefest

Hello my Blogosphere friends,

     I had an amazing Sunday. I actually went to Pridefest at the Summerfest grounds. I know some of you want to hate on that, but before you do please remember God loves all of his children!

    I got to see my brother in law play again. My brother in law is actually this phenomenal guitar player, Steve Vai even said so, which is kind of a big deal (he has sold over 15 million albums). My Steve, the brother in law, was playing with a band called the Dianna Jones Trio. Wow, that lady can sing and play the guitar! Worthy of checking out. Steve was so in his element, I had moments trying to suck back the tears watching him up on that stage. He looked so happy and sounded so good. I don’t know how you can walk away from the stage and hop back on sounding like you had never left. The music industry is really about luck I think. Steven is so talented he just never got that break at the right moment with the right people. He has mingled with Big and Rich, and they thought he was pretty impressive too, I drop Vai’s name first as I find that more impressive.  He was wonderful, Dianna and the rest of the girls were great, and a shout out to the Sandman too. I just can’t leave the drummer out, how rude!

    So, my agoraphobic self made it to the Summerfest grounds. WOO WOO let’s hear it for me! I have to say I have not been to a lot of festivals or concerts over the last several years due to my issues but this was the nicest group of people ever. Everyone we spoke to was just kind and friendly, this does not happen at Summerfest. I actually really didn’t want to leave, it was nice being around joyful people.  It really started from the moment we arrived. We sat next to a nice guy and just started chatting and joking, he could have hung with us all day. As we were standing in line a man said, “Is any one feeling lucky?” My sister of course responds…but he was just a nice man who had an extra ticket so he wanted to pay it forward and bought both of our tickets. Where does this happen? Disney is supposed to be the happiest place on Earth, I think perhaps it is actually Pride.

“Friends can help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself - and especially to feel. Or, not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is.”

                                                                              -Jim Morrison

LOVE AND LIGHT

 Shout out to Johnny V's 1650 S 84th St, Milwaukee, WI

Excellent soup and bountiful burgers!

June is here

Hello Lovely People of the Blogosphere,

I keep thinking about taking some time to sit down and blog but I have been so busy with school and life. I guess the reality is I am really not where I should be right now and it displeases me greatly. I am not doing the things I am supposed to be doing, like seeing Doctor Bob. I have not really been working on my goal of making it around the block. I am not moving forward the way I should be.

I still take care of the kids, my physical health has been improving, I am still doing well in school. Spring Deans List 2013. Deans List again! I wasn't sure I was going to make it this time.

The car show season has begun. Dean has gone to two shows and won first place trophy's in both for his class. I went to the first show with him. I did okay.

Last weekend my God-daughter and her friend were in town for a visit. We went to some rummage sales, went shopping, and had a very nice visit. Today I have to go check out an apartment for her that she really wants. It kind of kicked in last night. I have to go by myself. I hate by myself...

Last night it was really beautiful out. I sat in my bedroom watching reruns of Special Victims while I watched all of the people heading towards downtown. Friday nights in the summer they have live music playing at various venues, drink and food specials, shopping specials...in all honesty I am not sure what all goes on. It seems like it would be a lot of fun. I have never gone. Today is the Farmers Market, that is crazy busy. I love going but have not gone in a long time. Like years...so I feel like I am heading back deeper in my fish bowl instead of getting out of it. Which is one of the reasons I need to blog. I know I have said it before, but to some degree it helps me stay a little more accountable. If it is here for all of you to see I feel like I have to try a little bit harder.

I hope you are all doing well and are enjoying your summer. I hope you are stepping outside of the house and getting to enjoy some of the summer fun and festivals that seem to be going on every where.

Love and Light!