Do You!

Happy New Year!


With the holidays passed and the New Year upon us this has been a great time of reflection for many of us. I have been doing a lot of thinking and I know I need to make some changes, nothing like a hospital visit to put things into perspective. I have a hard enough time as it is simply leaving the house, so an overnight, or two at the hospital is just about unbearable, especially being away from my son.
The people in support of me were kind of mind blowing, people I just know from attending college online, people I worked with in the past, and of course my family, really the online perspective was kind of amazing...even a supportive ex boyfriend. I also ponder those who said nothing, did nothing, asked no questions and are my "friends", it really makes you look at things. A bit of a wake up call or a reality check of sorts. That gentle fuck you we have all given and received I suppose. Heck, I  received a supportive message from an old friend who gave me a gentle fuck off awhile back, we are like the perfect divorced couple. We get along great for the sake of her kids and I appreciate your concern so much. I guess some bonds are unbreakable. I want to thank those of you for your concern and compassion. I want to thank you for offering to pick up groceries for me after the fact! Thank you my amazing friends and family!
I met a lot of interesting people while in the hospital,  but this gentleman named Eddie sticks out in my head in a particular fashion. Eddie brought joy and hope with him when he walked into the room. Eddie is a phlebotomist at Waukesha Memorial. A gentle soul with a contagious smile and a beautiful singing voice. He was singing Amazing Grace when he walked into my room for the first time. Eddie just made you feel better, which I don't think many phlebotomists get that, when he came to visit. I feel like he IS a story, like a great story that Mitch Albom writes. I know he already has a story about an Eddie, but this Eddie deserves his own. I had to go up to the hospital for lab work following my release(it really was my release-I released myself) and I asked the phlebotomist who was working if she knew Eddie, a big smile came to her face. Of course she new Eddie (and his songs) she actually went to see if he was in for me so I could say hi, sadly he didn't start for another three hours. Everyone loves Eddie is what she told me, I believe it. He brings joy!
"“Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. an alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out"-Mitch Albom. Eddie reminded me not to be afraid. Eddie reminded me to have hope. Thank you Eddie.
I have so many things to say but I think I am going to close with one little thought. DO YOU! Take care of YOU! Take care of your mind, body, and soul each and every day!
Love and Light!


“Love is how you stay alive, even after you are gone.”
― Mitch Albom