If you set it free…the answers will follow.

If you set it free…the answers will follow.

Greetings!

I have been wrestling and wrestling with this insurance problem and I think we are coming to a close, a resolution.

“There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You seek problems because you need their gifts.” –Richard Bach

It is a gift to receive such concern and compassion. Tammy S. and Steve S. your generosity during this has really left me speechless-Thank You!

For my friends and family who were diligently working to find me answers. Thank you Mom and Tammy W.

To my pharmacy friend-Theresa. Whatever you do, you do well and you shine! Thank you-I guess I should have ultimately known the resolution was going to be found within you.

“A cloud does not know why it moves in just such a direction and at such a speed, it feels an impulsion....this is the place to go now.
But the sky knows the reason and the patterns behind all clouds, and you will know, too, when you lift yourself high enough to see beyond horizons.”-Richard Bach

I was getting lost within the clouds. I felt as if I was drowning. I could not pull myself up high enough to see beyond the horizon-thanks to everyone who helped me find my way.

I held all of this in, well aside from a select few. My boy was starting to wonder if I infact was going to die...and I put it out into the universe and the answers started to come and the pieces started to fall into place.

If you set it free…the answers will follow.

Resources

Wisconsin SHIP 1-888-242-1060 http:/ www.dhs.wisconsin.gov/aging/EBS.ship.htm

State Medicaid Office - Wisconsin Department of Health Services 1-800-362-3002 http://www.dhs.wisconsin.gov

State Pharmacy Assistance Program - Wisconsin SeniorCare 1-800-657-2038 http://www.dhs.wisconsn,gov/seniorcare/

People with limited incomes may qualify for extra help to pay for their prescription drug costs. If you qualify, Medicare could pay for 75% or more of your drug costs including monthly prescription drug premiums, annual deductibles, and co-insurance. Additionally, those who qualify won’t have a coverage gap or a late enrollment penalty. Many people qualify for these savings and don't even know it. Social Security number 1-800-772-1213 or www. socialsecurity.gov/prescriptionhelp.

Saint Joseph’s Medical Clinic http://www.sjmdc.net/

Waukesha Community Health Center 309 E North St Waukesha, WI 53188

(262) 408-2530 http://sschc.org/Waukesha-welcomes-patients/

Sometimes people need help.

 “Here is a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: If you're alive, it isn't.”-Richard Bach

Love and Light-

Agoraphobia Gurl

Reference

Quotations from The Messiah's Handbook
"Reminders for the Advanced Soul"
in
"Illusions - The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah"
by Richard Bach - 1977

Update

Greetings!

It has been awhile, probably too long.  I pondered whether or not to continue on this journey after a recent incident.  So as “out” and “proud” my crazy ass is I guess I need to reign it in some. I need to go back to changing names and identies….it is all really kind of bullshit but that is not what is important.

So who am I? During this journey I have come to the realization that the basic onset of my anxiety issue and agoraphobia is a traumatic brain injury.  You know, that is really nothing to be ashamed of. When I was busy working, and juggling my young son I took a massive tumble and my head needed stapling shut-however no one ever did a CAT or an MRI at the time. My blood sugar was only 30 when they revived me, this is nothing to be ashamed of. As I piece this together now I can clearly see the anxiety building and growing after this TBI. Little pieces of emotional or physical trauma continue over the years…no wonder why I am broken.

Trauma has a vast variety of changes and breaks that happens in an individual-injury, death, many things play into the picture.  One of my colleagues was in a car accident when we were maybe 12, I think that is where her break began, between further trauma of physical abuse and loss she crumbled further.

I speak to others experiencing anxiety and agoraphobia and the theme is pretty consistent. So why did it take me to diagnose myself? Was I not listening somewhere along the line?

All I know for certain is I have done nothing but try to better myself and try to help others with sharing my story…

As of the first of the month for some reason or another I have lost my insurance. Given my health issues and my income, no insurance leads to a death sentence-truly. I am not being a drama queen. Please please please-don’t try and start blaming Obamacare. If a politician is to blame I live in Wisconsin and the blame starts here, but I don’t want this to be a political thing. How about just a human thing.

Before I got sick I worked my ass off. I was a salaried employee working OT like crazy, wiping asses, getting pulled around by my hair, teaching people how to ride a bus, teaching ADL’s-I loved working! I had the most rewarding job ever! Well, being a Mom is way better but I am talking paid positions. I had to work holidays. I had to work weekends, and I would do ANYTHING to get that back.

Now with my limited abilities I go to school fulltime on line, and help people as much as I can. I am however pretty limited. You can’t look at me and see a disability…often times people don’t realize that a disability isn’t always something you can see. My body and my brain really work for crap, but I try. Each and every day I try.

Is this my swan song? I am not sure. I am not sure what will happen. I know I have been making phone calls. I know I have been seeking help. I know I am getting nowhere. What’s next…not sure. Can a diabetic live without insulin? Right-so do I construct my bucket list? Do I preform in the Destiny Lee 6 Rival? Hell yeah-going out fighting….keep on keeping on!

Love and Light,

 Agoraphobia Gurl