Feeling a little too agoraphobic

I did my out of the house thing today. Yay me!

I am still feeling growly or owly or something. I guess hormonal will work.
Heavy day but my night ended with laughs.
I say to "baby sitter", " I have never been to 7 Mile Fair I would really like to go."
He responds,"You can't handle Wal Mart" (laughs)
This is becoming an issue.
I say to "baby sitter", "I want to go to Florida. I want to take my Son to Sea World!"
He responds, "I am not going to drag you around "the happiest place on earth" quivering, afraid of people in mouse ears."
Baby sitter aka Safe Person, you were picked because I trust you.
I believe in you. I always believe in you.
I support you emotionally and spiritually.
Please stop crushing mine.
I realize you don't comprehend that is what you are doing, but your words hurt.
I did make it to the second floor of the library today by myself, thank you!
I did have to keep telling myself "I am a strong black woman, I am a strong black woman"
That is one of my favorite mantras. Drawing out my inner Madea or Tina Turner.
(Just for the record, I am white)

I was talking to my sister Heather tonight.
We have a family function coming up, a pretty boo ghetto family function at that.
My darling sister gives me the idea to use my agoraphobia as an excuse.
It is TOTALLY valid. I have a hard time leaving the house but she straight up said
"Tell her you're feeling too agoraphobic." I kind of love it.
This way I can avoid telling her I think she is being a selfish b#@%h and I don't have to go.
So just for today I am feeling just a little too agoraphobic!
I have the blessings from my brother in law as well, and that was priceless!
I love you all so much!

Peace and Love!