Isolating

In true form of an agoraphobic I spent my day at home. 
I wasn't productive either. If I could pick my "disorder" I would much rather be an OCD neat freak!
I would at least be productive and my house would be clean!

I am very much so feeling edgy. I feel like I am going to snap at some one.
I know I need to get out of the house. I know I need to do something "fun".
I am just like always, feeling trapped. I look out my window and watch life happen.
I think this is how a goldfish must feel, trapped in a little bowl watching life happen.

Winter is the worst time of year for me. The days are so long and dark.
If I didn't have my Son I am not sure I would have the motivation to leave my bed.
I do much better the rest of the year. I love spring. Watching the earth wake up from its long slumber.
Watching everything start to bloom. I love to garden. Getting my hands in the dirt grounds me.
In the summer I can sit in the yard, my tiny chunk of heaven. Listen to the birds sing. Smell the fresh grass. Makes me feel just a little bit more normal.

Here's to hoping you got out of the house and had some fun today!
Peace and Love.