Shout out to Hungary

Such an eclectic group of readers. I have to give my shout out to Hungary,as you are my people too!

I am pretty sure I mentioned I had "applied" to be a part of a group at UWM that is trying to study/cure people with social phobias. Epic FAIL. I am not socially awkward "enough".  I am not sure if this is good or bad, but I will admit it does actually feel pretty good. I am just basically afraid to leave the house. Agoraphobic. They are looking for people who are afraid of people and social settings. After talking to this women very briefly I knew I was not what she was looking for. I am the person that talks to strangers in the grocery store. I am the person who bonds with the staff at the hospital. Heck I had a meeting to go to, and I switched seats to sit by a man who looked like my fake daughters dad. If I have to be out of the house might as well seek comfort from sitting by a man that looks like Stan. Yes when I go some where my heart pounds, I start to shake, I get dizzy, and all kinds of other "wonderment's" but it is not from an underlying fear of people.

Are you still scratching your head and wondering what a fake daughter is? Once upon a time I worked with this gal who had 2 simply amazing beautiful little girls. I have had the privilege to watch them grow up. They watched my son for me when he was little and now I get to watch them be Mommy's.
When Annie stayed with me for a little tiny bit(way too little and tiny) I think she came up with being my fake daughter. It kind of stuck. I kind of like it.

I have been leaving the house almost every day. It has been a work in progress. Some days it is really hard. Some places are really hard. You just got to keep on trying!

Love and Light!




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