Thanksgiving

Greetings,

While slacking I found a little post on Facebook which is relevant to the season, well it should be relevant and something we think about all of the time.....

"It's important to remember that not everyone is surrounded by large wonderful families. Some of us have problems during the holidays and sometimes are overcome with great sadness when we remember the loved ones who are not with us. And, many people have no one to spend these times with and are besieged by loneliness. We all need caring thoughts and loving prayer right now. If I don't see your name..., I'll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy, paste, and share this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will! I did it for a friend and you can too!"

 

Everyone is so consumed with shopping, pies, and all of those wonderful things that go along with the holidays, we need to remember not only are some people hungry but they are alone and sad. What could each of us do to make some ones day a little brighter? Sharing our time is just as valuable to some one as donating a winter coat or some canned goods to the food bank. Truly giving of yourself embodies what the holiday is about, do you have room at your table for an extra someone who might otherwise be alone? A simple note or phone call letting some one know that you are thinking of them, a plate of cookies to the neighbor. Share your time. The holidays statistically are a horrible time for depression and suicide, make sure you take that moment out of your busy life to reach out to some one who might otherwise be alone, let them know that they matter!

 

Remember to give thanks. I know in my life I am truly blessed. It may not be with tangible items, like shiny new cars, or exotic vacations, hell I am on the cusp of insanity! However, I have a wonderful son, amazing friends and family. A place to live...and love. Above all I have love.

 

Count your blessings and share them.

Love and Light!

Sage Wisdom from my crazy ass

Greetings,

I am probably too exhausted to be writing this, but it is on my mind, so here it goes.
A word on forgiveness and letting go, or not trying hard enough....giving up.
Once upon a time I was married to John, it wasn't always easy, but it wasn't always so bad. We had a lot of good times. We went on road trips, camping, concerts, we laughed. His friends called him Bird man because his laughter was like a cackling bird (and he loved eagles).
He died in November, November 6th to be exact, when my son was 5 (he will be turning 18 this year). I have just been sitting here listening to some music from concerts we attended before Michael was born, or songs he would sing to me as we were driving around. Holidays are hard without him, he brought joy to the holidays. I wish Michael knew that. I wish Michael knew him when he was well. I wish Michael knew him outside of that hospital bed. I wish John were here watching him grow up, teaching him about being a man. John should be the one teaching him how to drive. I still get very angry at this God who takes away Daddy's and babies that just didn't get enough time.
I guess I should get to the point...
Today people just don't take relationships seriously. " To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part. And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness." That means something, do whatever it takes to make it work. If you can't make it work at least learn to be kind, and learn forgiveness. So many people spend so much time being bitter and being angry at their ex. Let me tell you, it isn't worth it. For as much as that man pissed me off, I miss him and wish he were here being Michael's Dad. If you don't have kids I guess maybe you can just walk away, but if you do have kids you need to learn forgiveness, as long as that child is alive that person you created him or her with is going to be a part of YOUR life. Learn how to deal with it. It is a process, it is painful, but you are forever intertwined. You will have confirmations, communions, graduations from high school, college, your child or children, whatever the case may be, might just get married (and you might actually have to dance with your ex), you might become Grandparents...you are forever intertwined (think before you breed-this is a long term commitment). You need to learn to let go of that anger and that pain. I would do just about anything to have Michael's Daddy here with him. Just because we didn't make it as a couple doesn't mean he doesn't hold a special place in my heart...forever in my heart.
Make each day count and treasure every moment.

Dear  John                                                            
Written by Tommy Shaw


Dear John I knew you
About as well as anyone
We were the wild ones
So sure those days would never end
Now they're only memories my friend

Dear John I'll see you
Some day again

I swear I saw you
On a crowded street today
I almost called your name
Thinking of all those yesterdays
Heaven help me
How I miss my friend

Dear John I'll see you
Some day again

There'll be a celebration
When all will be revealed
We'll have a reunion
High on a hill

Dear John how are you
God know it's heaven where you are
Find some peace there
May it never end

Dear John my heart knows
We'll meet again
Dear John I'll see you...
Some day again


                                                                 Fly with The Eagles!
                                                                   Love and Light

BLAH-November

Greetings,

Hope all is well in your world. Today is a cold and rainy day and I am not feeling motivated. I have a paper I need to work on but until I hear from my Professor I am on a stand still. I finally got Inferno from the library (Dan Brown), which you can see my quandary here...paper/Dan Brown book. Dan Brown is really not something I can knock out in one day.

Well what am I doing to make me better and work on my agoraphobia, I am trying to push myself a little more out after dark. I generally do very poorly after dark, like I am a reverse vampire-hold the glitter, but when the sun goes down I have a melt down like the Wicked Witch from the West after some one hosed her down good...I am melting I am melting!

So on Halloween (yes I closed my doors and did not hand out candy-perhaps another Elphaba move) we went to see a movie, usually the movie theater tweaks me enough as it is-but we went after dark. It was a nice change of pace and I didn't melt or anything, went out to dinner at Culvers the other night after dark too, no melting. I mean I do feel agitated and uncomfortable but nothing has killed me thus far.

I went to my Cousin's housewarming party on Saturday, I was looking forward to going, but I dipped into the liquid courage(Southern Comfort and Miller Lite) and had a very enjoyable time. I went to McDonalds with my parents afterwards as my Mom wanted French fries and ice cream ( she had a little Miller Lite too) and I did fine. If only Southern Comfort came in the form of a pill that I could take every day. I guess that too would wear off, but it is nice to be free and not care for an evening.

Feeling Scrooge like and not overly motivated, between school and the holidays right around the corner I just don't know which end is up. I didn't even have my children/family Halloween party or any kind of Samhain gathering...my wood is still sitting in the back yard getting wet. Maybe next year will be better? Maybe I can pull myself together for Christmas. Whatever the case I hope you are doing something to move forward. No matter how small the step may seem, take it!

Love and Light!