Anxiety and taking a
trip down memory lane….
Part 2
Greetings,
I feel obligated to share the outcome of my trip down memory
lane, I really just want to crawl in bed but I have these moments where I know
I should say something and they slip away…and I just can’t let this slip away.
1.
Mean girls-they stay mean girls!
2.
I never got that chance to make amends to that
other blonde.
3.
Pete-he is still Pete. He has beautiful children
and a lovely wife. I am happy for him.
I was kind of hoping for a different outcome on the Pete
thing. Like I have had those moments. We went to school with these Italian
boys, Tony and Tom. For the longest time Tony and I…I just don’t know. I don’t
know what happened. Why we started fighting. Hell-I know he thought I was cute
around 7th grade-and they were hot Italian boys! In our early 20’s
we happened to work together at the Chancery. I was pissed they hired him. As I
worked next to him, occasionally giving him the stink eye, I was trying to
figure out WHY we didn’t like each other. What the heck happened? Finally one
day, I asked him. Do you know why we don’t like each other? He didn’t know
either. Well, if you can’t remember why you don’t like someone it is obviously
time to move on and let it go. We did. We have lost touch, but after reacquainting,
we partied, we laughed, I even have pictures-somewhere. I guess I was hoping
for something closer to those lines than what I got. However me and Pete were
never friends, and honestly-I don’t think we were meant to be. I am sorry would
have been nice. I can’t believe I wasted vomit on this man!
So I went. I made it! I drank way too much. However we shall
save the self-medication discussion for another day. I lived. I got to meet
Dawns sister-way cool. Wish I would have made it to see the bro. I got to meet
a bunch of really eclectic and wonderful people. I got to see people I have not
seen in years. I got to live. Yesterday I did not let anxiety win. I won.
Love and Light-
Agoraphobia Gurl
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