Hello Loves,
How are we doing? I am doing, not great. I ran some errands this morning, so my agrorphobic ass
did get out of the house. I managed to snap on Dean while in the Dollar Store. Things have not exactly been peachy around here and I mostly want to punch him in the throat, this has been lingering since my I am sorry I made you cry post. I know you say get over it, but my people don't get over it.
Just ask my Mum about Wendy's or Sam's Club, we hold a grudge when we are treated poorly.
Months ago they found those lumps in my breasts, one in each, like a matching set. In this time I was supposed to wait, wait to see if they grow. Well I have been just stewing in this. I have been trying not to think about it, but I can't shut it off. I am actually pretty certain the lump in my right breast has grown. I can feel that it has grown. Monday morning 7:30 am is when I get them rechecked. Nothing like starting the day with a strange woman feeling you up and proceeding to have them squished flat like a pancake...Agoraphobia Gurl is a little shaken and stirred, not in a good way like a yummy alcholic beverage, in bad way. I don't want sick boobies. The rest of me is fucked up enough, I don't need this too. So if you are so inclined maybe say a little prayer, light a little candle, do what ever it is, to who ever your God is. Send a little love my way : )
Thanks
Love and Light
Take a breath! Have you read the one article I sent to you? LET IT GO... with both the honey and the lumps. You have to take a deep breath and just put positive energy out there that the lumps are just lumps not cancer.
ReplyDeleteYou are going to light a white pure candle. You are going to meditate on the idea of healthy breasts and body.
Then you are going to sit there and see my tree and know that there are things you need to let go of - including the whole incident with the honey.
You know in your heart that we all have those moments when we do and say stupid things. We can only hope those who love us will forgive us for doing those stupid things.
I love you sweet cheeks. I know you will be fine. I am sending you all the fire and power of my dragons to help you heal and release the negative energy you are holding on to.
By the way - consider this your Gibb's smack... :)