When a guy says to you" I am sorry I made you cry" and hands you flowers, what exactly does that mean?
I am pretty sure it means "I am right but I am sick of you whining so here are some flowers and stop looking at me like that". That is what I think that means.
What do I know? I am the Queen of failed relationships. I do know I am sure you are sorry you made me cry, as it makes your life rather unpleasant.
I have been getting out some. Not as much as I should be, and for sure not alone. That is okay. I guess it will come in time. I am always saying one step at a time. I guess I need to take my own advice. We went to Denny's for dinner Saturday night. I did not tweak out. I usually get nervous when I am in that place, but I must be getting used to it. The Sante Fe Talapia was pretty tasty I must say. I ordered a skewer of grilled shrimp too. I forgot how much I like cocktail sauce. Yummo! I would have been happy just eating the shrimp and cocktail sauce.
Sunday we went to a car show and we were in the parade in a near by city. It was fun, we were directly behind a country band that was actually pretty kick ass. I am not really a country fan, but this was like Kid Rock approved. They played Save a Horse Ride a Cowboy, which I kind of hate that song, but they did it well. The thing of it was, all the people watching the parade and jamming, high octane amusement. Scantly clad Grandma's with boobs a jiggling, jumping up and down singing along. Dudes with big beer bellies grinding and singing along,. Little kids singing along. A lot of
fun being had by all. I really wanted to take pictures of the people, but that may have been a little creepy. I have enough issues. I don't need to be creepy.
I saw my friend Eileen on Friday, yes I just went backwards. My blog, I can do what ever the hell I want. The visits go buy way to quickly, but is was needed. So that was refreshing.
Today I did some grocery shopping. I know that is not exactly exciting but if you have been following from the beginning the point of the blog is that I am agoraphobic and sharing my quest to normal. I was with Lily, she is so frigging distracting it is hard to tweak, I mostly get annoyed. Hanging off the cart, jumping off the cart, not listening, just being Lily. I love her.
Company is here so I am going to run. Hope all is well in your world. Hope you are panic free and getting out of the house.
Love and Light.
I think you should take the flowers and the apology and let the rest go. Relationships are work. It is not easy to stay together. The peopel we love are the ones who annoy the shit out of us the most - probably because they love and know us the most.
ReplyDeleteOur visits are too short but I think I could be with you 24 hours and it would still be too little time. I say buy the house down the street from me and we can visit more often. Wait you have other people in your life that like to spend time with you. I have no plans to live in a city as big as the one you are in. I guess that means we are stuck with our monthly (or so) visits.
As with everything else - life really is just one step at a time. The point is to make the most of that step or that moment. Too often we forget to focus on that and those moments slip away too fast.
Well that is the extent of my wisdom today - it must be time for a nap....
I hate when I make lame spelling errors and I catch it after I post. FYI I didn't mean time goes buy too quickly, time goes bye too quickly! Really I am not a boob.
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