Good Morning Saturday!

Greetings!


I have been busy and pushing myself to go out more. Thursday my Mom, my Son , and I went to see my Grandparents at the cemetery-we brought them some flowers and wandered about. It really is a beautiful place.
Kind of creepy- my Dad's parents "plot in waiting" and my Godparents "plot in waiting". It is weird seeing the stone with no date (thank God) but just seeing each name waiting for the time to come knowing we mere mortals pass. At least Aunt Liz has an outlet by her plot-this is important-her hair is very important to her : )
Really not making light-I am 45, people pass, many of my friends parents have already passed. Judy and Hope-I can't fathom what it is like for your Daughters without you here. Hope and Dawn would be on some exotic Thelma and Louise adventure(without the cliff diving ending) and Judy would just still be Mama Judy-which is a good thing.
My Son's Dad died when he was 5. I was not in charge and his Dad's last wishes were to be set free in the Mountains of Colorado. My Son is turning 18 and his Father is still trapped inside a cookie jar inside of his brothers house in Colorado. No matter how many trees I plant, or ornamental figures I purchase my Baby he should have at least some of those ashes ,  so he could have a place to say good bye, a place to visit, a place to bring flowers too. I think had John known the impact and harm it would have caused he would have planned this process in a different manner. I guess all that really matters is his Fathers spirit lives on within him-however John deserved better. I wonder if it is at least a Christmas Cookie jar? Christmas was his favorite.


Back to my Thursday events-we went to the Olive Garden-AT LUNCH TIME-when it was busy! Soup, salad, and bread sticks and some delish asparagus breaded in evil deliciousness. YUM...I have not done that in years. Actually the last time I did it was a few years ago with my parents for my birthday-by a few I mean many. I love the place. John and I used to go pretty often.


Next we had to go to the mall. I am happy to inform you I did not die. I did not even pass out. It was a pretty quick trip to the mall. Mom had to pick up something and Michael wanted to go to Barnes and Nobles-we did the math on that. Not pretty either, I think the last time we went he was about 5. Yep-I won't be winning any parental awards.


After our lovely adventure with Mom Miss Lilly came over for a sleep over without her little brother-just a special Lilly Day. We went to Dairy Queen-she had said she had never been before, and she had a pineapple Sundae. She wanted to go to The Dollar store-pretty easy for a super awesome Lilly night. The weather was not on out side. We would have like to take her riding at Deans but it was yucky and mucky. We went to breakfast-at breakfast time-when it was busy at McDonalds, ran a few errands. Went to the Pet Store and had a Lillytastic Day!


That is a lot of activity for the Agoraphobia Gurl.


Thursday I had to sneak out for my physical therapy appointment-she adjusted me and taped my back and shoulder. I NEED some of this magical tape! I have pretty much slept all night for the last two days, I have  not used my heating pad. The roaring searing pain that usually takes up my lower back is down to a mild annoyance-YAY TAPE. YAY PHYSICAL THERAPY. I just now need to locate a money tree and life would be pretty damn amazing!


Love and Light!
Do something for you today! Hopefully something outside of the house!
Agoraphobia Gurl


On a side note-I am now officially playing phone tag with my student advisor-so still no answers-still in limbo. MAYBE-just maybe if some one would call me back when I am actually here- I know that is a pretty far out idea but if I call and say I will be at physical therapy from 10-11 and that is when you call me back, well this seems a little ineffective to me. Just saying....