Facing Fears and Facing the Past

Greetings

Tonight I made plans with Dawn to go hiking at Lapham Peak. This challenges me on several levels. Dawn is extremely fit, she does 5K's for fun.  I know I can't physically keep up with her, and she knows it too, but I need to try. I need to try for Dawn. I need to try for my health. I need to try to concur my fears. I just need to do it...period. I will be bringing my camera.

The last time I was at Lapham Peak is when Rob and my little boy proposed to me on bended knee. My son even helped pick out the ring. Lapham Peak was a significant place to Rob, myself, and my child. If you know me, you know all the heinous details of my story. But the quickie version is shortly after the proposal and MANY countless promises to my little boy, he bailed. He bailed on both of us. I could personally forgive him and let it go, but he really mind fucked my kid-that is unforgivable. Rob left me for a 23 year-old named Janette. Pretty little thing. They didn't make it either. Rob has some issues. The fact that HE is a therapist now mortifies me. Any how-tomorrow morning I finally go back and revisit that part of my past. I have to admit I am feeling pretty good about it. I am up for the challenge!


So we did it! Well, I knew she could do it but I wasn't so certain about me. She figures we went about a mile. Which I think is a pretty good start for me. I can visualize maybe, just maybe being able to do one of her full hikes in the future, with a little practice.

I had a few moments being in the depths of the wooded area where my chest thumped bit, however the company was good and the scenery was beautiful. Today was a success. Went for coffee afterwards at   Cafe de Arts, first time for me. Great atmosphere!

Thank you for the amazing morning Dawn, and the yummy coffee! FYI you do help people on a deep and meaningful level, you just don't get paid for it!

Love and Light!

Oh Yeah....Rob who?