It has been a day.
One of the family pets, a beautiful red eared slider that belongs to my son passed today. He has been a family member for 11years. I spent several years chastising Dean for this birthday gift that what not approved, and today I cried as I held his lifeless body. I know, sounds weird I guess, but I had a relationship with Gamara, we talked, I pinched his tush, I looked into his eyes and saw the soul of this little creature who depended on me. I am really rather broken up about it.
My son has been rock solid, he really had no option. With freaking out cousins and a tearful Mom, 16 and still the man, being brave and taking care of every one else just like he always has.
Wasn't I just talking about this? Loss, karma, why does all the crap have to happen to my kid when I can't do anything about it? With every bump in the road what this has created is a beautiful, polite, young man. Yes inside of him is hurt and anger, but inside of him is also great love. Yesterday at the festivities the extended relatives were talking about what a polite young man he is, and I can proudly say yes he is. My sister had commented she was pleased at the care and concern he had shown for her daughter.
Sometimes it is really easy to be pissed off about some one not cleaning the bedroom or taking a plate to the sink, but damn I really have a kid to be proud of. He is kind,loyal , and polite.
So no matter what craziness or lack of "normal" I have given to him, which he would never complain about me. He thinks I am the best thing in the world, which is pretty amazing considering his age.
No matter what kind of shit life has handed to him, and it is plenty, all odds stacked against him, and he is AMAZING. I have always said he is the best thing I have ever done, and I really just meant the whole my egg, he grew in me thing, I am not sure how much credit I can take for the rest. I think he turned out pretty amazing simply because he is amazing.
I love you forever.
I like you for always.
As long as I am living my baby you will be.
Love and Light~
Make sure to hug your kid and tell them how special they are.
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