And baby makes 7

Greetings

I have been pondering this for about a week now and I just  can't shake it so  I guess I need to put it out into cyber space and maybe feel just a little bit better.
I tried really hard to have a baby. I have one, he is now 16. I was supposed to have twins but I had vanishing twin syndrome, which in my eyes felt just like losing one of my babies. My friend Holly was blessed with one, and due to evil fibroids in her female area, that is all she got. We are both lucky to have our amazing children. Our stories are not uncommon, people have issues trying to have babies all of the time. But you have this other spectrum, people who can't seem to stop breeding. People who really have no business breeding. The other day I was watching a local news program and they were talking about the epidemic in this country where if a man does not feel like a man. If he is unable to provide emotional, financial, just plain old support to his family he has more children as that proves he is a man. Sounds kind of barbaric right? I shall spread my seed and be a man...ARGH. I don't think this is just a guy thing. My cousin for example,she could be straight out of a Jerry Springer episode. She has 4 baby daddies, I know she is getting some kind of state aid, which sometimes people need a little help and I have no problem with that but when you hit number 7 and you can't support them...keep your legs closed. She is having babies on purpose, this last set will be twins(which I think that is why this just is just boiling my blood), she doesn't take care of them. She can't support them, so stop being selfish and keep your legs closed.
It is not like we are talking about the Duggers, that is a loving Christian family who in fact can and do financially and emotionally support their family. Do I think it is a bit much, yes. Does it concern me, no. They are taking care of the family they made with out state assistance, and provide a loving home for them. Providing a loving and nurturing home for them. I don't exactly get them but they are good people, a little odd, but good people.
My teenage boy really does not eat a lot, but let me tell you, he is still expensive to feed. He likes Ramen and cereal so I guess I am lucky. New jeans, tae kwan do classes, books, shoes for his ever growing fee,t it isn't cheap. It is however worth it. I would not trade motherhood for anything. He is my greatness. No matter what I could achieve in life he would be my best thing. I can't even begin to list the things I would love to provide for him, but I can't. But he is happy, he is wise and he is good. I could not ask for anything more.
How do you  and baby makes 7 plan on doing this? That is 14 growing feet. 7 mouths that need to be fed. School fees, extra activities like sports or dance. I think the last time you worked was at the counter at Cousin's. How exactly can you provide for these 7 children? The baby daddies are doing what they are supposed to do, what about you? What about your responsibility?
I am pretty sure we will be revisiting the vanishing twin syndrome and the inability to have more children in my life again at a later date. I still dream that baby, but not as much as I once did. My gynocologist has told me over and over it was not my fault. Maybe that is an issue we should visit here. Part of mental health, part of my mental health.
My agoraphobic self is staying in where it is warm, or at least warm-ish for the rest of the weekend. Went to Moms today for lunch and had a wonderful visit. Now my Lily is here for a sleep over.
Do something for you this weekend.

Love and Light.