Here I sit armed with my Girl Scout cookies.
I spent my day over at my Mom and Dads.
It was a lovely day.
I keep thinking about tomorrow.
Tomorrow is my last appointment with Maggie.
I am not even stressing over having surgery on my arm.
I am just really contemplating cancelling my appointment so I don't have to say good bye.
It is a real deal goodbye. I guess it is a good thing I have an appoinment with Doctor Bob on Tuesday.
I don't want to say goodbye and I am pretty sure I am going to walk out of that office in tears.
At least today was nice.
Big changes in the air for me.
I have applied for my FASFA and I think I am finally going to do it.
If I would have started the process when the agoraphobia began I would have my Masters by now.
I am thinking Applied Behavioral Science.
Crazy Person Heal Thy Self!!!
Really, if you are reading this because you are like me...
If you have agoraphobia. If you have severe panic disorder.
Can you do something to move forward?
This blog started it for me.
I have gotten e mails saying I get you!
I feel you!
Your Son will be okay!
You could have took the words right out of my mouth...
I did something with this.
I made some one feel not alone.
All I wanted to do was to be able to reach one person, and I have.
I want to keep moving forward. I am sick of running on my never ending hampster wheel.
I want to be able to show my Son at least I am trying.
If you are reading this and you are like me.
Don't give up!
Keep moving one step at a time.
Love and Light.
Good for you!
ReplyDeleteIt is really sad to let go and move forward but you are doing it. Saying goodbye to Maggie will be hard but I am positive you will be fine with it. Why don't you take your email address and say I've enjoyed our time etc and let's stay in touch...
It's amazing what is awaiting you around the corner when you just let go of what is now.
You are the goddess and stronger than you give yourself credit for...